::trash, i say
11:58 p.m. - Tuesday, May. 16, 2006
certain events of today got me really worked up and it was only in the shower i took just a slight bit ago that i decided that, ah what the heck, i should blog about it. God bless online outlets. don't you think so?
i hate it when insensitive friends act on impulse and seemingly engage in acts that benefit one side and show utter disregard to the other. it didn't happen to me, but to someone pretty dear to me who often runs on boosts of adrenalene these days due to insufficient sleep. heh heh wink wink nudge nudge.
male ego, machoism, the brotherhood, 'its a guy thing', WHATEVER really. the masculine sex seems to use those terms as lame excuses to indulge in mindless acts and activities that they feel we femmes will never, NEVER understand. again, whatever.
introducing, The Old Friend. now, he and i were pretty close a while back and shared many a time and events together. yes, so the good times lasted but why does it seem like after an entrance of another into my life, the dynamics of it all changed? now, before you think that TOF started bearing discontentment with the time we spent together because i was with another, then you're wrong. instead, TOF became more intent in being with The X rather than hanging out being aloof with someone who has been there through the thickest and thin with him. with TOF, it became almost a competition between he and i for TX's time and attention. what with discouraging words and that unhealthy competitiveness plus the disregard for me, it made it all too easy for my limit to be reached. i was around at your high times and the low times man, thanks for changing. kiss that sarcasm will you.
and there was The X who would've been labelled another name if our time didn't cease to exist. now, here's an interesting chap. throught he time we were together, he's become so accustomed to me and so comfortable that it has become more than easy for him to now, let me down and shove a big No right in face. i haven't encountered another person where TX has so easily turned down. an honour i should be proud off? of course, dear friend, i'm more than pleased to hold that position in your life.
then comes The Maybe . this could be the one that's gotten to me the most these days. what with 'fishing' and games. nuff said about you, you've come up in a previous post and to glorify you once more would make it almost unfair the other characters waiting in line to be mentioned.
and then comes The Homeboys who have more drama going on in their lives than broadway. you think girls have drama? wait till you meet these bunch of chaps. what with friendster bulletin attacking, betrayal, the traditional bad-mouthing and secret hating that comes out at the least expected time.
forget The Bold and The Beautiful. i have characters in my own award-winning soap.
don't get me wrong boys, i don't resent your gender. this puts the saying can't live with em, can't live without em in a whole other plate.
i cannot tolerate the bullshit anymore.
and just a reminder, start buying your own cigarettes while i remind myself that i can never depend on The Dick for anything other than that kind of pleasure.
